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2003-01-28 - 11:17 p.m. Be forewarned that I probably little worthwhile to say here. It was an okay day - and I realize that if it's been less than stellar, I have some responsibility in this. I ate chocolate today after lunch. I'm not supposed to as I'm allergic to it, but sometimes you just have to cheat on stuff like that. I itch really bad tonight as a result. My insides are not pleased with my choice. I've been thinking about dying lately. Not like making a decision to die. Just what I'd want to happen if I did suddenly. I think I'd want to be buried here in Chicago. I used to think I'd want them to haul my remains home and put them someplace along the Illinois River where I grew up. That idea seems like a reject at present. I mean it just doesn't seem to fit anymore. My wordly possessions I'd want to see divided up amongst my friends and family. A few of the larger items could go to someone here in my apartment building - I have good furniture for a small apartment and I'm almost certain that one of my fellow tenants would get the most joy out of getting my desk or kitchen table. I could go on...but, the real question on my mind isn't what will happen if I die. The real question is, what do I do if I keep on living?
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